in the 'as if' style

As if. this is the way to live. in this style of 'as if' . deliteralizing the hardness's around us and within our ideas, thoughts. I do not mean to live in denial, that would be different. and dangerous. as if is more accurate to the actor on stage, thhe Indian Lela or the Japanese Kabuki.
I am now an enlgish teacher,as if. Acting this role. Seeing through its literalzations. as if i am a writer.